Do you have things that you don’t want other people to know about? Maybe it’s a scar on your face that you keep bangs to help cover up or a medication that you take that you don’t want anybody to know about… We all have those kinds of things. For me, it’s my dominant right hand and to say I’m a little bit uncomfortable talking about something I try to hide in public is kind of awkward, but it is what it is.
I guess it’s been about 5 years or so now that I had a bit of an accident where lost my right pinkie. I had to have surgery to have it reattached followed by another surgery to repair the quickie reattachment and weeks upon weeks of physical therapy. The muscles that side of my palm were also severely damaged. Nowadays my pinkie is deformed and basically non-functional but at least it’s there.
That first year I had such a hard time. I’d cry and get upset, why couldn’t somebody who just watches TV all day have this happen? Why would this happen to somebody who can’t keep her hands still? Why not Somebody whose job doesn’t require dexterity?
I don’t know how many times I picked up my crochet hook to give it a go, only to have to put it down after some incredibly frustrating minutes. But I knew that I still had a hand and that was cause to be thankful, lots of people aren’t so lucky. That’s right, this girl with the jacked up hand is lucky :)
One of the first things I could do well again is crochet. It took me about 2-3 years before I could hold a needle well enough to take embroidery back up. Only in the past year or so have people noticed that my handwriting is starting to look like my own again. Last year I started making jewelry and it can be so frustrating dealing with such little things. But I pick my jump ring that flew across the room and give it another go. Like I said before, it is what it is.
So when I really wanted to make some of those rhinestone and macramé style bracelets I’ve seen online I started checking out tutorials. But I was having SUCH a hard time following along with so I had to come up with my own way. A way to cheat but appear to get the same results. Check it out, Easy Rhinestone Jewelry on Mom Spark!
And if you made it this far, sorry for the whining. And I don’t want you to think that it’s this horribly grotesque looking hand because it’s not but I’m still very sensitive about it. Not really sure how this wound up coming out of me, but it’s real and it’s honest so I’m going to leave it. Hoping you have a fantastically optimistic Tuesday!